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Trinity
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The moment that I saw the true source of the light, I wanted to groan or cry out in frustration, or something along those lines. WHY!? Why did it have to be this?
There was a door. Yes, that was a good thing. It was exactly what I was looking for. However, standing in front of the door were those three little imps. Those little imps had been there for every door that I had gone through since this ordeal started.
Those little devils had brought me to this place to begin with. My initial entrance into the underworld and the level of self reflection, all of it was them. Were they trying to sabotage me?
Then again, they stopped me from following that other voice. That one that was evil and probably belonged to Hekate. They made sure that I didn't walk right into her stupid trap. So, they did save me, I guess.
And, well, when I went through the door to the self reflection area, I had been looking for any way to get out of where I was to begin with. I was stuck because I had nowhere to go and nothing to do. I needed a way out of there and they gave me one. They led me here so that I could continue my journey. That was sort of helpful too.
OK. OK. I get it. They weren't here to sabotage me. But what was it that they did want? I mean, why were they here?
As I asked myself those questions, I looked closely at them again. They really did look like Reece. That was so insane. Why was I projecting his image onto these little imps? I know that I miss him and all, but I wouldn't think that I would be projecting him like that. I mean, that was pretty much the same thing as hallucinating. Was I seeing things that weren't really there?
Could there be something more to this? Could these imps be something more? I don't know if that was the case or not, but I did know that I needed to keep moving and not stay still. I needed to be like a shark. I can't stop moving for anything.
I almost stopped though. When I saw those little imps looking at me with huge smiles on their little child-like faces. It was almost too much for me. I didn't want to think of them as children and I didn't want to think that they looked like my children, but I couldn't stop it. That was all that went through my mind right then.
Those grins weren't evil and they weren't trying to hide anything behind them. All those smiles made me think was the way that Talia looked when I came home after a long day of working. Or the way that Reagan and Rika used to run to me smiling after their first few days at preschool. Those smiles looked like the smiles of children that saw their mother.
But these imps weren't my children. So, why were they looking at me like that? I tried to figure out the answers to those questions as I slowly approached the door in front of me. The imp on the right came running forward then and took my hand. He was looking up at me just like the way Reagan, Rika and Talia would do when I held their hands. This was so strange, so bizarre.
"Why are you here?" I asked them, I was unable to stop myself from doing it. They didn't answer me though. All they did was smile and point at me, specifically my waist. That made no sense to me at all. "Where did you come from?" I tried again. Once again they just pointed at me and didn't speak. "Where do you belong?" One of the imps put his hand on my belly but still didn't say anything. "No, you don't belong in there. I have my three kids at home, and I lost one baby before. Still, I would remember if I ever had three babies at once. That would kind of stick out in my memory."
I laughed and tried to shake off what the imp was doing, but he didn't stop. He just kept his hand on my belly while smiling at me. After a moment he even started to pat my belly like he was offering comfort or something.
Well, that was odd.
It didn't matter though. We had gotten to the door that was waiting here for me. The door was once again just standing there with nothing supporting it at all. There it was, in color, as were the imps, but everything else around me, including myself, were still in black and white.
I timidly reached out with my left hand, letting go of one of the imp's hands in the process. The knob of the door was solid and warm like it had been held by someone else recently. Or like maybe whatever was on the other side of this door was really, really warm.
That was a comforting thought. Was this door going to lead me into the true 'hell' part of this underworld? Was this the fire and brimstone section? That wasn't a very comforting thought. What exactly was going to happen to me when I opened that door?
"Is this safe?" I looked at the imps, one after another. I was trying to see if they were confident about this door or not. They were all still smiling, and they all nodded at me to tell me that it was safe. I guess that I had no choice, there was literally no other option for me right now.
I took a deep breath while I steadied my hand that was on the door knob.
I was procrastinating. I was stalling. I was doing anything that I could to not turn the knob. That included looking all around me as I was waiting with my hand on the door.
'Come on, Trinity, stop hesitating.' The other me called out from the back of my mind. 'You can do this. There is no reason for you to act like a baby at this point.'
"Oh, shut up you." I snapped at her and saw the three little imp boys recoil just a little. "Not you three. I am talking about the voice inside my head." They tilted their heads in confusion like they didn't know what was going on, but they were worried about me. Or they were just worried about my sanity. Yeah, the latter was probably the case.
'They cannot hear me, and they never saw me. They do not know anything about me. I am only here for you, Trinity.'
"Isn't that just wonderful?" I sighed as I shook my head. "I know you're right, though. And not about them not knowing about you. I am referring to the fact that I need to stop being a baby. I need to just open this and go."
No more deep breaths, no more stalling. I just bit the bullet, figuratively speaking that is.. I opened the door and saw a bright white light that blocked out everything else on the other side of the door.
