"Thank you…", Kai's deep voice broke the silence.
Meg didn't get it. "For?"
"For being the best mate one could wish for."
Meg looked up at Kai and the pure sincerity in his boyish grin created a mix of emotions inside her.
He was so amazing that he called her the best, despite her flaws, and Meg wondered... was she worthy of him?
Meg never looked down on herself. Even when she plastered a fake smile while complimenting guys who won only because she was holding back, Meg had the confidence that couldn't be shaken.
However, this was different. This was not just any guy. This was her mate, Kai from the Midnight Guardians pack. But more than his impressive physique, handsome features, his status, or anything else that he is, it was about what he did.
Kai gave her his first time and his first kiss and Meg didn't do the same. He was sweet and unspoiled, yet she felt dirty.
Sure, being a virgin doesn't mean much in the society of werewolves. They start shifting in their teens, so everyone saw plenty of flesh, and when that combines with their lustful nature, the most difficult part is to wait until the eighteenth birthday.
The unwritten rule is that underage girls shouldn't be touched and that guys should wait until they are mature enough to indulge in carnal pleasures with the milestone being their eighteenth birthday, but not everyone is following it. After all, the sweetest fruit is the forbidden one.
However, Meg knew that the Midnight Guardians pack was different.
As much as Meg was confident in herself, all that dwindled when compared to Kai's brilliance.
"What's wrong?", Kai asked. Their mate bond allowed him to feel her dejection rising.
Meg pressed her lips into a line. She didn't want to voice her thoughts. Did Kai figure out that he was not her first? Considering his inexperience, probably not. Will he connect the dots later? Will he hate her then?
"Hey…", Kai called with concern obvious on his handsome face. "Are you not happy to be with me? Did I do something wrong? Tell me so that I can fix it."
Meg's heart cracked. The more he tried to comfort her, the guiltier she felt. "You did everything right, Kai. It's me. I fear that you are too good for me."
Kai's expression was full of love when he asked, "Are you doubting the Moon Goddess?"
"What?"
"The Moon Goddess made us mates, Meg. And that means we are perfect for each other. I have no idea from where you got that I'm too good for you, but whenever such nonsense comes to your mind again, remember that you are my other half. If you are not good, that means I'm not good either. As long as we can be together, I won't care if we are good or bad because being with you makes me feel complete."
Meg was dazed by his sweet-talking, yet he spoke eloquently like he was stating well-known facts. "You are doing it again."
"Doing what?"
"Proving how amazing you are."
Kai chuckled. "I was just speaking my mind. Feel free to do the same, Meg. Good or bad, I want to hear it all. There is nothing about you that can make me think less of you."
Emboldened by his words, Meg thought of getting that burden off her chest. It's better to come clean right away than later. Right?
"What if… there is a man?", Meg said in a small voice while observing his facial expressions.
Kai's brows came together in confusion. He didn't know what Meg will say, but he definitely didn't expect her to bring up... "A man?"
Meg nodded. There were few of them, but she decided to stick to one. "In my life. A man."
Kai's expression darkened as he understood that the man reference is related to someone who is romantic and possibly intimate with Meg.
"You have a man? Break up with him or I will.", Kai growled dangerously.
"No, no…", Meg panicked. "In my past."
Kai's whole face contorted into a grimace as he struggled to contain his possessive green monster. He was never jealous in his life, and this caught him unprepared.
He had to get a grip on himself, and he needed to do it quickly.
Meg was telling him something and if he ended up exploding into a rage, there was a good chance Meg will start keeping secrets from him. And he didn't want secrets, not between the two of them.
Meg groaned as Kai's hold on her tightened to the point of hurting, but she didn't want to tell him to let go of her. She would take any punishment as long as he forgives her past indiscretions. Is that even possible?
Kai released a slow breath and dispelled the killing intent that swelled within him.
His firm grip became softer as he composed his thoughts.
"If it's in the past, I don't want to know about it.", Kai said eventually.
Kai cursed himself internally. Just a minute ago he told Meg that he wants to know everything, good or bad, yet he was already backtracking on it. Kai was familiar with the ways of the other packs, and he knew that werewolves start dating in their teens, and that's normal. His pack was the odd one.
Kai could handle anything other than the idea of Meg having someone else in her heart and mind, and the mental image of another guy embracing her was making his heart shatter into a million pieces, no matter when it happened.
What if it happened yesterday? What if that man is waiting for Meg's return to the Lightclaw pack? Is that why she asked to visit her family? So that she can sneak out with that guy while her family keeps him occupied?
"If it's in the present, deal with him or I will. As for the future…"
"My present and future have only you in it.", Meg said quickly, and Kai's heart ached when he felt her insecurities.
But he was glad to confirm that whatever man she mentioned was in the past. It's not now.
Kai felt stupid. He wanted to know everything about Meg, but now he realized that he can't handle the truth.
It was obvious that Meg was more experienced and if he was not from the Midnight Guardians pack, he would have many girls in his past also. Only the Moon Goddess knows how many times Kai relived himself (Kai lost count a long time ago), and if not for his locked abilities, he would probably search for a woman on those occasions instead of doing it with his hand.
Kai knew that they were products of their environment, and he shouldn't chastise Meg for being born and raised in a different pack.
The mood was ruined, and Kai blamed himself for that. The only good thing was that he was still embracing her and she didn't try to escape his hold.
Kai had a desperate need to start another topic because Meg's emotions were fluctuating.
